Messages

I've been working through the believing God workbook for this week and I just feel so empowered- so much more enlightened. It's like pieces of myself, my inner thoughts, are thoroughly and continually making sense. I am ever so grateful for this experience. I feel like this was the perfect time in my life to attempt to reconnect and make sense of everything. To take a stand for myself.

There's a phrase that says, "God, some of the rewards I've already received through seeking You are..." and I literally wrote, the fact that I can seek you and talk it out. No matter what. I've always had this motion that Faith was something to keep behind closed doors. Sure, I talked about it with family and youth group, but after my family broke it down I wasn't sure. Religion is always a shaky territory for discussion and honestly, I've always had this nervous twitch in my stomach when it comes up. Lately though, I've noticed that I just want to share it. I want to tell people what it is that I'm learning and the things that I'm rediscovering. It's still murky ground because of company and because I'm merely in the beginning, but I have never really wanted to share that aspect of my life with anyone. Now, it's like it's starting to flood and I'm proud of it. Proud is the best way to describe it.

It's never going to be easy. Then again, what is? Through all of this though, it's getting easier to just Trust and explore. Explore without limits and without guilt. Explore just because I'm on a path toward seeking. I'm genuinely happy with this path- happy with my life choices- and peaceful in what's to come. I haven't felt like this for awhile. It's nice.

Tomorrow I have public speaking in the morning and then I get to spend the afternoon with the best kids in the world. My heart swells whenever I get the chance to talk about them. I'm still amazed at having the chance for this experience. For their smiles.

My speech Thursday? Has to be demonstrative. I think I'm going to do: How to have a conversation in Spanish. Maybe the kiddos can teach me a thing or two. =)

There's two passages that really hit home for me tonight. I already feel content with their message.

Hebrews 11:6
Isaiah 54:10

Oh! And this video/ song has been in my head all day today. Just feel like it's moving me forward in my journey.

We Were Made For You- Aaron Gillespie

With Hope.