Plans

"Faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen"
-Hebrews 11:1

I don't think words can ever truly and honestly explain what has been going in my life these past few weeks. School has started here at Arcadia and there's just so much on the horizon. There's so much to do as far as school and classes, new living, and just getting acclimated to everything. I want to be the best of everything that I can this year. I want to really kind of show myself and continue along in my faith toward Jesus. Toward the love of Jesus. It's been a crazy, busy summer and I'm just ready for the next few months. No matter how much I have to stretch myself I'm determined to do everything I can.

This past week was the activities fair on campus. The club I've worked to get going on campus, To Write Love Arcadia Uchapter, has finally been approved and wonderful. I came home Thursday night and checked the sign up sheets. Are you ready? 170 signatures! Insane!

Sitting there that day was something really humbling for me. It was so nice to see people coming up and asking what the story was about, signing themselves up for a story of hope and help. Sharing in this journey with me. It humbled me because people were willing to acknowledge the need for help on campus. People don't have to share their stories with me, but 170 people signed up for a reason. 170 people came and attempted to reach out in whatever way possible. It's crazy how I feel right now.

I came home that night and just kept talking to Jesus. I kept thanking Him for allowing these people to come into my life. For Jamie and his ability to actually get a haven like this moving. It's been crazy and and hectic and wonderful. Clearly, this felt like Hebrews 11:1 for me. The outburst is evidence not seen- I have the utmost Faith that God is watching over me with this whole project- with the absolute fruition I've seen in this. I'm beyond excited to see what else God has hanging in the rafters for me.

I wrote a letter to Greg & Ashley today because I felt like I just really needed to sit down and thank them for absolutely everything. This summer has been an amazing one and without it? I don't think I would be half of the person I am right now. Or that I will be in the next few months. Ash & Greg, if you happen to read this, just know how much you mean to me. Know how great you are for extending your hand to me and watching me grow in my steps toward Jesus.

I've been praying & thinking about a lot lately. A lot of different plans for the semester and goals for myself. I've been thinking so much about what I want to get out of this year and the different experiments I kind of want to put myself through. The first and foremost will be Thesis: I'm asking for God just to have heart and faith with me in this walk. In this quest toward really figuring out who I am and where it is I'm meant to go.

I've talked to Caylynn a lot and told her that I really want to get more involved with Jesus, with teaching His Word and teaching the wonders. I want to completely dive into everything and I think Youth Ministries is inspiring some of that. I'm ready to continue falling head over heals for Jesus' love. I can only continue praying that I get the guidance and that God will lead me somewhere that allows me to get so close to Him that I'm breathing in his greatness every second. We'll see what happens.

To some of this I have to remain completely blind with my heart open forever. Overwhelm me, Jesus.